WARNING: The waiting period is very challenging. And in the waiting, God refines you and teaches you to just really surrender and trust Him.
I learned that on the day the September 2016 LET results came out.
It was our school librarian, Miss Bea, who called me up and told me that the LET results had already been released and our conversation went like this.
Bea: “Miss, the LET results are out.”
Me: “Oh my, really miss? I’m scared.”
Bea: “Do you want me to check the results for you?”
Me: “Yes, please, if it’s okay with you, miss.” (I put down the phone, praying and telling the Lord, “Ikaw na bahala, Lord, if I don’t make it.)
She calls after a minute or more.
Bea: “Miss, you passed!”
Me: “Huh? Bitaw, miss? Basin naay laing O_____ C____.”
Bea: “Di ba you’re middle name is P___?”
Me: “Yes, miss.”
Bea: “You passed, miss. Congratulations!”
I was still a bit nervous that time but it was no longer anxiety that I felt. It was like a more settled feeling that pass or fail, God had my future in His hands. 🙂
Upon learning that I passed, I was so elated that I went out of the faculty office wanting to shout at the top of my lungs “Thank You, Lord!” Of course, I did not shout. I was in school. The students in the hallway who had seen the funny expression on my face asked what had happened. I had no words.
I did not even know at this point I had made it to the top 10. I only knew I passed and for me I was already very grateful. No words could describe my gratitude to God. I knew it was a God-thing.
In my elation, I mistakenly went to another classroom to start classes after the bell had rung. I was dazed. After the class, I went back to the library to work on a school requirement and received a text from Teacher Jane telling me that our jokes about topping the board exam finally became true.
I did not get my friend Jane’s text and told her “Yeah, I wish.” She replied with a “No, ‘Cher, this is not a joke. You topped the board. 10th place.” “What?” I told her it was not a nice joke. She told me to check my Facebook. The librarian who had earlier checked the result said, “Oh no, miss, it’s really true” after she checked the LET results the nth time that day when I told her a friend of mine said that I made it to the 10th place.
The moment I confirmed the news, I rushed to our school’s fifth floor and there, near the school chapel, broke down in tears. My first thought was, “Lord, thank You, this is for my parents.”
You see during the last week of studying, I only wanted to pass for my parents because they had assisted me financially in the preparations especially in buying different reviewers and other materials.
Had I studied straight for several months for the LET and answered all the required 10,000 questions, I would have attributed it to my superb intellectual prowess. Hah! But as I see it, it was all God’s grace and goodness.
I did what I had to do and gave God the rest, trusting in His wisdom and grace.
So as I end this, I give all the glory and praise to God for passing and making it to the 10th place. This is all for His glory and for His honor. I am just a vessel of His faithfulness, mercy and goodness.