Seventeen years after graduation and letting go of my fears and apprehensions, I am now able to articulate 3 areas where I want to focus on professionally: teach (part-time), do research and write a book and write articles and do community work.
It has taken me that long to let go of my fears and sort out what I really want.
When I was much younger, it was the steady income and money that was uppermost in my mind. I wanted a stable job never mind if the teaching requirements took up most of my time from doing research. After an experience teaching 2nd graders in a public school and teaching 7th and 11th graders in a private school, I finally put my hands up in surrender and mustered enough courage to pursue what I want and what I enjoy doing and that is to teach a subject or two, read, read and read books and articles and write and have time for my blogs and other creative ideas.
As my dad again reminded me this morning during breakfast, “Tsi, don’t think about the money. Work on what you’re passionate about first and then the money will come later. Sow first by doing unpaid work first and then the income will follow.”
I guess I now have the strength and self-awareness to admit to myself that I am not cut out for an all-out teaching career. The kind of teaching career that makes one stay all day in the school churning out lesson plans, grading papers and working on all the paper trail. It makes my brains go out, makes me restless and bored. I want to work outside the box (literally and figuratively).
I would rather go to school for my classes only, mentor a few students for their papers, work at the university library for research work and publish a book and some articles. At the same time, I would want to work on a community project that combines some of the things I am passionate about which are: community development and history.
It was scary at first contemplating about this move but it has been two months now since I left the school where I once taught and so far this has been the most restful, “busy but not stressful” and enjoyable time of my career. It is a bit challenging though not to have a fixed schedule as you have to be mindful of keeping time blocks to make sure that you work on the research projects you are involved in. I have found that these days while I do not have a fixed schedule and a time in, time out schedule, I am more punctual without absences at this time.
Hopefully, I get to work on my planned Instagram and blog for Cebuano History and Culture. That’s always been my dream: to someday work on something that will make the ordinary Juan de la Cruz and the Bisayang Dako (like me) passionate, more aware and more knowledgeable about our local history.
*Photo mine – Taken at the Museo Parian sa Sugbo 1730 Jesuit House*